The purpose of awareness meditation is to become aware of Spirit all around you, flowing through you, and moving as you. I developed this meditation practice through trial and error over the past 2 years. I started out meditating the way I was taught at 8 - by watching my breath. Over a year ago, I set an intention to be a pure, clear, wide open expression of God. I wanted to remove anything that appeared to be separating me from Spirit. I also wanted to see what would happen if I completely removed the lens.
I went from developing a practice, to feeling exposed, to being immersed in joy. I am currently experiencing an overlap with other people’s consciousness and the ability to experience alternate choices.
Warning: You gauge your readiness for experiences. Delving into Spirit is safe, however, it can be a very scary process. You need to build your practice to these experiences without forcing them as they require mental and emotional preparation. If you dive in head first, you may experience significant physical and/or mental illness. Keep your intentions pure. Be patient with yourself. Practice forgiveness. (Disclaimer)
Loss of Edges
I would meditate for 3 months then stop because I would feel as if someone sandpapered my edges and left me raw and exposed. Sounds painful. Yes, it was a bit, but looking back I can see that it was the process of getting connected and conscious.
As I continued past the 3 month mark, I felt a slow dissolution into Spirit. I feel like I am gradated out into the Infinite. Sometimes, I feel afraid that I will disappear into the pool and loose my identity completely. On a few occasions in the past year, I did feel like I disintegrated, but I quickly regrouped because of the fear.
Swimming In Love and Joy
After about 4 months, I began to feel spurts of euphoria for no reason. I would be humming along to go to a customer and I would feel an overwhelming sense of joy. I felt like I was walking on sunshine. Over time, I began to feel this euphoria in the midst of “negative” situations.
One day I was walking to work and I felt like I was splashing around in love and joy. Nothing in particular triggered this feeling. It could have been the endorphins, but it wasn’t the same as the high that I usually get from walking. This was a feeling that all was right with the world, that there was nothing to fear. I was at peace and felt a sense of unshakable joy from deep within.
Today, though I might have experiences that evoke sadness, or anger, I am still living in that state of love and joy. I am conscious of it in every moment of every day. It helps me to forgive myself and others immediately. It enfolds me when I feel sad in a situation. I feel blanketed in love. I live from a fountain of joy that bubbles from within. I know as I go about my day that all is well and that everything is working together seamlessly for the Highest Good of All.
Lifting the Lens
For 30 minutes every morning, I consciously remove the lens that shapes my expression of Spirit and I consciously dwell in It. After that, I go about my day in love, joy, and peace.
Earlier this year, a friend of mine was grappling with a decision. My prayer for him was that he remained clear so that the answer could be revealed. After revealing his initial decision, he went about his life, but he quickly switched to the other side of the coin. He confided in me that he felt as though I intervened on his behalf.
At the time, I didn’t know what I was doing, but when he said that I realized that I lifted his lens so he could see clearly. At first, I thought that I was imagining it. Then, I decided to experiment with lifting the lens for a few other people.
I did it on a small scale at first. I would be in a conversation with someone mulling an idea. I simply waved the lens away and all of sudden they were clear on their path. Then I started experimenting with a few people remotely. Every time someone indicated that they were in the midst of a tough decision, I just waved the lens out of the way. I would suspend it for a moment so that they could be clear.
There are a few things that are important to note. I don’t dabble in people’s consciousness without their permission. When I can, face to face, I ask them, usually in the form of the question, “Would you like me to hold that in prayer?” If I’m not face to face, I ask them psychically. Everyone is not prepared to be clear.
Also, I just lift the lens for a moment so that you can see clearly. After that it’s still up to you to follow through on the guidance received. If you’re not prepared to follow through on the guidance, a good prayer is to remain clear so that you can see the answer and hold it in your consciousness.
Overlapping Consciousness
As my edges frayed away, I began to overlap the consciousness of those close to me. I can “dial in” to someone at the drop of a pin. I can also “hear” them if they call. So that if someone is thinking about me I can sense it.
Again, at first I thought that this was just my imagination so I started to experiment. When I felt that someone was trying to access me I called. Lo and behold, the first thing they would say is, “I was just thinking about you.”
Recently, I had the experience of being so interlaced with someone else’s consciousness that I could feel most of what they were feeling. Once again, this got really scary, so I backed off of my meditation practice. Since then, I have been asking friends what I can do to navigate through this phase. I picked up my practice again about a month and a half ago and I have been treading cautiously.
It’s not so much that I want to protect myself because I realize that I am in a safe space. It was more that I was not prepared for that level of connection or its repercussions. Today, I still feel connected, but I am more of an observer than a participant.
Parallel Realities
That brings me to another experience that I’ve had recently. I was sitting on my couch one day working on a post when I experienced an entirely separate reality. It was as if I asked myself what would happen if I chose xyz and it played out like a movie. Only it wasn’t like a movie or day dream and I didn’t ask that question. I was actually engaged in what I was doing, but I was also experiencing this alternate reality.
I have not done anything to explore this phenomenon further as once again I am in uncharted territory. I’m just continuing to keep my intention pure - that I am a clear, pure, open channel for Spirit.
Has anyone had any of these or similar experiences as a result of prolonged meditation?
Update: Soon I’ll post a Podcast with a guided awareness meditation.
In Spirit,
Nneka
